07.09.2006 or "Back from the dead and other revelations"
No Im not dead, no nothing terrible has happened, I am however in the thick of job related tomfoolery some of which has been bordering on the obsurd lately. Needless to say, Im back now and you dont have to worry about such long absences again. You see life out here is a balancing act between complete unpertebment with regards to my situation and location and other times, as in the case of the past three days or so sheer confusion. You see, I find myself awake at night, or in a situation where my brain goes, where the hell am I, what am I doing here, who are these people, what have I become, what am I going to do? And all of these questions are usually acompanied by days of complete disorientation as I grasp at straws of sanity. Also just when I think I have things sorted, or I get into any kind of routine, the rug somehow gets pulled from under my feet and I am left trying to sort everything out again. I felt like I had no time to do anything I enjoyed because I thought I was losing grip of the important things I need to do. What was really happening was that I was panicing.
So now I have decided to stop, slow everything down, stop worrying about what people thing of me for the sake of my own mental health and just do the best I can do in what is a very alien and alienating situation. I keep telling myself Im very new at all this and not to push myself too hard. Maybe I should listen to myself.
Anyway, through all the madness I have found yet another calming past time to get me through the day. Turtles! No not the cartoon or the excelent arcade game but real, baby freshwater turtles which I purchased the other day! Yep, they are in my classroom and they are the most adorable little guys you will ever see. Whenever I get stressed out, i just play with the turtles, pick them up, let them run and swim around and generally find them very amusing. I got the kids to name them, one is called Carol, the other SaaSaa and the other TurtleCrab. Well I couldnt really tell them no when they were trying so long to think of them. I will post some pictures of them soon.
I realise this entry has no kind of structure or consistancy, but I mainly just wanted to post something, anything to let you know Im still here. Expect normal posts from tomorrow onwards and thanks for sticking around.
Till next time,
So now I have decided to stop, slow everything down, stop worrying about what people thing of me for the sake of my own mental health and just do the best I can do in what is a very alien and alienating situation. I keep telling myself Im very new at all this and not to push myself too hard. Maybe I should listen to myself.
Anyway, through all the madness I have found yet another calming past time to get me through the day. Turtles! No not the cartoon or the excelent arcade game but real, baby freshwater turtles which I purchased the other day! Yep, they are in my classroom and they are the most adorable little guys you will ever see. Whenever I get stressed out, i just play with the turtles, pick them up, let them run and swim around and generally find them very amusing. I got the kids to name them, one is called Carol, the other SaaSaa and the other TurtleCrab. Well I couldnt really tell them no when they were trying so long to think of them. I will post some pictures of them soon.
I realise this entry has no kind of structure or consistancy, but I mainly just wanted to post something, anything to let you know Im still here. Expect normal posts from tomorrow onwards and thanks for sticking around.
Till next time,
posted by Aaron | 7:30 AM
4 Comments:
good to have you back...be carfeul in your doing but i now recommend you drum like the devil and abandon any cares you may have as the weekend approaches...
Hey man,
Gald to hear you're alive and well and that you're a little less stressed out. Hope things dont get too much for you, just try and find those few moments in your day to relax. Turtles sounds awesome and the names sound exactly what kids would call them, my favorite is TurtleCrab!
Peace out dude
Dave
Hey aaron! great to here from you man - my lunches have been lonely at work without your blog to read, so I'm glad to hear that you are ok. Although the title of your blog got me worried until the rest of the page loaded! Those turtles sound like the most awesome pets - now all you need to do is "accidentally" flush them down a toilet, pray that they end up near a suspiciously glowing pool of ooze and wait for the day you hear the triumphant cry of COWABUNGA!!!!!!!!
Turtlecrab...heh, like liz, i too am now reading you blog in my office lunchhour, im working just north of london for anyone who wondered where i dissapeared to, so im sorry for the lack of comments in recent weeks
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