11.09.2006 or "The Day I stop putting "or" after the date"
Warning: Readers of an already depressed disposition are adviced to stop reading now, the staff at MMI are not held responisble for any damage caused by the apathy and whiney nature of this post.
Well, here we are, post 74 and Im still yet to make any sense out of this situation Im in. What I do know is that I miss socialising, alot. Life out here leaves little time or opportunity for anything which resembles the carefree visits to the pub with my university friends which now seem forever ago. How long before I get something like that back again? Also the few people I do speak to seem a world apart from the people I know back home, different priorities, different interest's different sense of humour. I feel like havent truly been able to have a decent conversation with anyone since June. So we find other outlets, such as this page, but even then poor time management and tiredness often puts a dampner on my motivation to do a blog, as you may have noticed recently. Yep, nothing has become clear or stable, so I wait, and try to do the best I can, and wait some more, then think for a moment that vast amounts of money can replace friends, but it cant, as any morally grounded person will warn you. Well, maybe it cant until the PS3 comes out eh?
Tomorrow is parents evening at school and words cannot describe the fear this instils in my heart. Remembering my own parents evenings makes this seem all the more strange, plus there is the whole language barrier which may either work for or against the flow of the proceedings. "Bite the bullet and face it head on" seems to be becoming the mantra for my life at the moment. Hope for the best because frankly you have no examples to measure any of these new experiences up to. I need a more optimistic outlook though, I never actually end up making a complete fool of myself in these situations, maybe just underwhelm slightly, something which I have been comfortable with most of my life.
As always I will keep you posted on events as they unfold.
Well, here we are, post 74 and Im still yet to make any sense out of this situation Im in. What I do know is that I miss socialising, alot. Life out here leaves little time or opportunity for anything which resembles the carefree visits to the pub with my university friends which now seem forever ago. How long before I get something like that back again? Also the few people I do speak to seem a world apart from the people I know back home, different priorities, different interest's different sense of humour. I feel like havent truly been able to have a decent conversation with anyone since June. So we find other outlets, such as this page, but even then poor time management and tiredness often puts a dampner on my motivation to do a blog, as you may have noticed recently. Yep, nothing has become clear or stable, so I wait, and try to do the best I can, and wait some more, then think for a moment that vast amounts of money can replace friends, but it cant, as any morally grounded person will warn you. Well, maybe it cant until the PS3 comes out eh?
Tomorrow is parents evening at school and words cannot describe the fear this instils in my heart. Remembering my own parents evenings makes this seem all the more strange, plus there is the whole language barrier which may either work for or against the flow of the proceedings. "Bite the bullet and face it head on" seems to be becoming the mantra for my life at the moment. Hope for the best because frankly you have no examples to measure any of these new experiences up to. I need a more optimistic outlook though, I never actually end up making a complete fool of myself in these situations, maybe just underwhelm slightly, something which I have been comfortable with most of my life.
As always I will keep you posted on events as they unfold.
posted by Aaron | 8:01 AM
6 Comments:
Hey Aaron!
on the parents eve just remember you are the man and in charge and they fear you- and if you don't feel like that then just act it...you will be cool;it will be fine
Mr.McKenna
Hey man,
I hate to hear that you're missing the socialising so much! I miss it too dude, drinking seems so few and far between in post uni life. I really hope things pick up for you dude.
ps I just finding out how much it costs to fly to Taiwan! Get them in, mines a Strongbow!
Dave
hey man, yeh i gotta agree with dave, i'm living down near london at the moment so havn't seen any 1 for drinks in a while, in fact the nights out drinking since uni finished could be counted by a two fingered retard. Dunno if my lack of socialising will either make you feel less of a loner, or depress you even more, ah well the world ends today apparently so at least thats something to look forward to
hey man - i gotta agree with the consenus here, even im missing going out, and i hardly ever used to go out drinking anyway! I'm missing you and all the guys a lot, and myspace and blogs can only stand in so much. I hope your parents evening goes ok for you anyway dude - let us know how it all goes. :o)
Hello Aaron,
I'm still enjoying yout blog and I wouldn't worry about missing the socialising. For one, I am sure that things will fall into place soon for hep-cat such as yourself and you will be living a party lifestyle. Another thing is that all urban life is lonely, no matter where you are, so just remind yourself that you have an absolutely awesome life out there in a good job in motherfucking ASIA. I admire people that meet follow their dreams, it's rare and you should be proud of yourself.
I would like to lie and say that my social life is terrible right now like everyone else but to be honest, it's the only thing working for me right now. Since I split up with Laura I have been practically constantly drunk. Not in the partying fun way that I would liked to be remembered for from the first year, but because if I stop moving and think for more than 10 seconds then I have to confront actual feelings and pain. I'm hungover today and have 4 nights out planned in the next 7 and then I'll probably fill the others with spontaneous jaunts out of the house.
I think the corellation is that everyone is working and I am not. If you sacrifice money, a feeling of self worth, ambition, motivation and actual feelings of caring about where you are heading then you can have a great social life!
Bum deal huh? Precisely. So keep your head up and your eyes wide and things will be beautiful.
Signing out, your jealous but proud friend,
Ryan
Thanks for the kind words everyone, its the comments you leave that make doing this blog worth while!
Post a Comment
<< Home